self control...

I'm going to have to restrain myself this evening as I sit before my pc at 10.28pm on the day of carolyn, twitch and jen's births...not because its amazingly late but because I have decided that in all things small and grand I need to be obedient. Within the category of small and meagre things comes looking after one's sleeping patterns and one's daily routine...(come to think of it are those things really so meagre?...I must say I'm beginning to think not...)

I realised this afternoon that its been almost a week since I last posted on my blog and I couldn't quite understand it...I think it has something to do with time and then also with our inability to really fathom and fully comprehend such an incomprehensible aspect of life...

I had a great chat this evening which stirred up in my heart the desire to come write but I knew I'd have to practise self control as I could sit here for hours writing about many of the mysteries and wows that I keep discovering and pouring over in life...during this same chat I was directed to a site with amazing photography and once again self control was the order of the day and I truly think I'm awestruck...awestruck with art and the concept that it's been created to reflect so very much...unfortunately with that came the sadness of art being misused and distorted...but there is room and more than enough for the redemption of beauty lost, beauty to come and beauty right now...

happy birthday to my dear friends...this is truly a day that has served to bless many of us as you have each touched so many of our lives in many ways...I am going to go about that practise of self discipline right now as the time is now 10.50pm and I must get up within good time on the morrow...sorry for the jumping and jerkyness of this post, I have a head full of thoughts, pictures and feelings...I'm feel like one of those home made soups with all sorts of weird and wonderful ingredients, an amalgamation of muchness...