a post with a difference...

I don't like the idea of posting on my blog this arrangement of words but I feel it is a means to gain some public knowledge of my need...

I suddenly remembered as I was trying to fall asleep on Sunday evening that I'm driving home next week, well actually to Pretoria on Thursday 22nd and I don't have anyone to give a lift to or anyone to drive in convoy with. So this is I guess me asking if there is anyone that anyone knows who needs a lift to Pretoria, or I guess even Jo-burg or if there's anyone who drives at the speed limit that would like to drive in convoy with me. I'm fine with driving on my own but was just thinking that it would be nice to have another person in the vicinity if there's any hassles...

What a boring post...I'm sorry...how dreadfully disappointing...but it must be done, relying on the grapevine and word of mouth...

anyways now that I've posted I must return to the studies...

time for the essential

time off really does do amazing things for oneself. We often neglect ourselves as we are doing things for ourselves, if that makes sense. We work and study in order to improve our intelligence, to stretch ourselves and to add to a possibly brighter future...well sometimes that is why we study. but in doing so we get so wrapped up in ourselves that we end up forgetting about ourselves, maybe like Gareth said this evening in the sermon, we "respond to the urgent, neglecting the essential"...that rung so loud in my being...

this weekend was such a blessing for me. it wasn't anything amazing on the scale of going away on an exciting trip or seeing my family, if you see what I mean by 'anything amazing', it was more just a rejuvenating weekend where I got to experience just being, not really doing very much in the sense of doing 'the urgent', I focused on what I now feel fit to label 'the essential'...

...the mist outside and the evening air at the moment seem so very appropriate, its as if my weekend is being wrapped up, a weekend which has left me more open to love, more rejuvenated, maybe quite a bit more tender but more aware of the necessity of not neglecting the essential in order to respond to the urgent, which if you come to think of it will generally be achieved regardless of whether we deal with and give our attention to the essential...I don't know if I'm making any sense whatsoever this evening...but basically what I'm saying is...

1- we should all remember to not neglect the essential
2-just having a break to do the essential is vital
3-the mist outside has enveloped my weekend and its just beautiful to draw in
4-it was amazing to have a summer's day in the middle of winter
5-i love very much my friends and those people so important in my life
6-I think I'm getting carried away with the numbering various points which I actually haven't spoken about so technically shouldn't be under my section of "basically" ie in summary...
7-thats how many days there are in a week
8-I'm going to go to sleep pretty soon...just to finish off my weekend on a good note of getting decent amounts of sleep
9-that's how many sleeps I have until my last exam
10-that's how many sleeps I have til I start driving home!!! YAY for that!

anyways enough dilly dallying...now that's a strange phrase if you ask me! take a look at something that I took the time to notice and photograph yesterday as I was embarking on my weekend of the essential (the page captured has no relevance by the way)...

I'm not sure if I have anything substantial to write this evening or if I'm just posting because I miss posting, plus it serves as a good form of passing time whilst waiting for the hour to strike in order to commence with one's studies.

As I've been growing in christianity and learning more and more as the year progresses I've come to realise that there's a fine line...there's a fine line that needs to be distinguished, to be taken and highlighted, a line which once one is on the other side, may end up being fully encompassing and not at all narrow as once believed.

There is what appears to be a fine line between loving oneself and being humble, between working for perfection and working as worship, between making the most of our talents and becoming defined by our talents...these all seem to be very fine lines on first appearance, but are they really...I'm beginning to wonder...once in the situation in which we are humble but love ourselves, work as if worshipping and use our talents not in order to be defined by them will there not be such a stark contrast from the alternatives that the line is now bold and recognisable to the extent that we know how to avoid stepping over the line or sliding back over it...

Thats my thought of the evening currently, well one of the many as like I've said before my mind is constantly an ammulgamation of muchness...I do quite like that little phrase just there..."ammulgamation of muchness"...

Best of luck to all the students (ie my friends) who read this whilst having a break from all their studies! and remember...like I need to constantly remember...

The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still ~ Exo. 14:14